Friday, November 25, 2011
Well, I haven't blogged in a while now. Things have just gotten so crazy busy around here lately. So this will just be kinda an update tonight.
In the last month, I have learned i can stand on my own two feet, hold my head up high and smile. We have had some very emotional days, but we are learning to live one day at a time !! My hubby walked out on us 1 month ago. Now I'm not going to lie, it's been hard on me, and I have worked very hard to protect the boys from dealing with it.
For a few weeks after, i wanted him back no matter what because i was scared, and felt so alone. It was something I was not use to, and I didn't want it at all. But God has his ways of showing us that we have to endure the bad to get to what is the Best on the other side. I can see that now....Lots of Family and Friends stepped up right away to help us walk through this break up, and I can never Thank them enough. There were times that I just wanted to crawl in bed and not get back out, times that I just felt as if I just didn't care anymore. Every time I felt that way, my phone would ring, or someone would knock on my door and pick me back up, hold my hand and lead me back to sanity.
As I sit here now typing this, I know that I am ok. So many things have fallen into place and worked out perfect for the boys and I in the last month. So I mean it when I say, I have truly learned that I can be me, smile, and be proud of who I have become !!
The Holiday are tough, now that's no lie either....but I am trying to take the bad, sad anyway and make better, best memories to hold on to. There's not a lot of money these days, so I have decided that the boys and I are going to 'make' our Christmas. We are making each other gifts we can share for a life time. I also believe that the boys will really learn the meaning of Christmas that way, Something we can do each year to come. Hand made gifts from the heart !!
life is showing me new directions and i am ok with taking those steps today, and the boys will become better, strong young men as we advance down this new wonderful path. i don't know what is waiting on the other end each day, but I am going to take my time, savior each moment, to get there. Time goes way to fast and in the blink of an eye, it's another year and I don't want to miss any of it. I have a very special gift in our home....Life, with two of the best little boys...Love, Peace, and Joy !! My heart is learning a new tune, and I am now ready to Hear it.
hug'ssssss everyone <3
In the last month, I have learned i can stand on my own two feet, hold my head up high and smile. We have had some very emotional days, but we are learning to live one day at a time !! My hubby walked out on us 1 month ago. Now I'm not going to lie, it's been hard on me, and I have worked very hard to protect the boys from dealing with it.
For a few weeks after, i wanted him back no matter what because i was scared, and felt so alone. It was something I was not use to, and I didn't want it at all. But God has his ways of showing us that we have to endure the bad to get to what is the Best on the other side. I can see that now....Lots of Family and Friends stepped up right away to help us walk through this break up, and I can never Thank them enough. There were times that I just wanted to crawl in bed and not get back out, times that I just felt as if I just didn't care anymore. Every time I felt that way, my phone would ring, or someone would knock on my door and pick me back up, hold my hand and lead me back to sanity.
As I sit here now typing this, I know that I am ok. So many things have fallen into place and worked out perfect for the boys and I in the last month. So I mean it when I say, I have truly learned that I can be me, smile, and be proud of who I have become !!
The Holiday are tough, now that's no lie either....but I am trying to take the bad, sad anyway and make better, best memories to hold on to. There's not a lot of money these days, so I have decided that the boys and I are going to 'make' our Christmas. We are making each other gifts we can share for a life time. I also believe that the boys will really learn the meaning of Christmas that way, Something we can do each year to come. Hand made gifts from the heart !!
life is showing me new directions and i am ok with taking those steps today, and the boys will become better, strong young men as we advance down this new wonderful path. i don't know what is waiting on the other end each day, but I am going to take my time, savior each moment, to get there. Time goes way to fast and in the blink of an eye, it's another year and I don't want to miss any of it. I have a very special gift in our home....Life, with two of the best little boys...Love, Peace, and Joy !! My heart is learning a new tune, and I am now ready to Hear it.
hug'ssssss everyone <3
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